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Things are not working out

Hey Blog,

It has been a while what can I say it has been a rough and busy one year. A lot has happened and I don't intend to catch you up on what all has happened, atleast not today. But, today I am here to tell you about a new problem I am facing these days. I have always breezed through exams and assignments. But lately it has  gotten harder. For the past two semester my grades have been on a downward spiral. Additionally, I have not been able to concentrate and recently I got a 14 on an assignment, which is by the way way below average. Admittedly my paper last semester were not really that well but still my scores in some subjects were just abominable. I am really disappointed. Additionally,  after that I promised myself that I would do my best this semester but that is so not happening. I am trying but I have a feeling that my internals just don't come out nice. It is like I am unable to think. I feel DUMB. I have never felt that in my entire life. I have given up on many things in my life; I no longer need friends and companionship I think I do without it. All I want is to score well this last three semesters. Okay let me be more specific things I want this year-
1. That in my revaluation I get a B in both my papers
2. That I do well in my moot- we atleast make it to the semis and get best memo, researcher and best speaker
3. I want a 3.7 in my external in 8th Semester
4. I want a job , ideally which atleast gives me a living wage and a chance of growth

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