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Best friend and crush part II

Okay so here it goes anyone who has read my previous blog post of the same title would know what I'm talking about, anyone who has not read the same can read it here. So now previously it was just that they were on good terms now in her own words she likes him, and the way I see it even he likes her as well. I mean could it get any worse . On the top of it the crush which would have gone by now has just intensified, I hear more about him through her and the more I hear the more I like him. Ahh this is so frustrating and kind of sad. I am pretty sure that if I give it a week  or two more they might just official start dating then how the hell am I supposed to be around them, even right now I try to act cool around him but I know that I am failing miserably. He probably just thinks I am an obnoxious bitch(for the lack of a better word). And its not that he is very good looking but he is so sweet and nice and generally good and I like him and I haven't fallen this hard for a guy since Mr. Darcy. Though just to clear the air he is not like Mr. Darcy at all. And to make matters all the more worse he messages me to ask about her when he can't reach her like where is she and stuff like that. I try to make these elaborate scenarios in my head about how he started talking to her so that he can get to me, but now I know that this was never the case and if that was the case and he likes me(though highly unlikely) I'm sure that I would not like him any more for leading on my friend, oh who am I kidding I would still like him but then too I could not be with him breaking her heart, that would be mean. And she is a close friend

So the best thing for everyone concerned is that these people get together and I just get over him but that is so freaking hard when every second conversation I have is about him, so I guess I would just concentrate on my research paper and work hard to make it publishable and worry about my semester results which would be out tomorrow, according to certain rumors.


PS- Ok see how hard it is to get this guy out of mind he just messaged me,although it is about cell work but still I would be thinking about him till I sleep, I hate myself, no I hate him .

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