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Am I really cold hearted?

I have been called cold hearted a lot times by many people and I have never taken it seriously. They always said so in jest and I took it likewise. But I think there might be some truth  in it. Recently, I have come to realize that maybe I am a terrible person really. Maybe not terrible like Hitler but like an unemphatic, unfeeling person.  One may ask why do I feel so?  Well, I am going to give a point by point answer for this-

1. I get bored of people
Yes, you read it right. I get bored of people. I cannot be around same people day in and day out. Let me illustrate this with the help of a very recent example- I have this friend, I have no issues with her. She is cool, nice. A little irresponsible but that never bothered me. I have been spending almost  8-12 hours with daily for almost a  month now and I am so bored of her. I can literally predict what she is doing. I cannot even talk to anymore, I am happy the days she doesn't come to work. I am not even interested in her life anymore, she just keeps on talking and I don't feel like replying back. I would be glad when I get some space from her, it would be a relief indeed. And this is not the first time. This has happened with  me so many times. With school friends, with parents, sister, with room mates, the list goes on and on.

2. I don't miss people
People miss people; parents, friends, siblings etc. I don't I have been away from home for three years now I have never missed my parents or sister. I don't my friends when they are not around. If people message me they miss me. I reply after a couple of hours cause I don't know what  to say. In the end I just end up saying a very fake "Aww". Which brings me to my third point

3. I ignore people
I ignore texts, calls not because I am busy. Because, I don't feel like. Need I say more

4. I don't feel stuff
I see people feeling stuff. I don't, I just function. I have crushes don't get me wrong but it is so sexual always. Even in my fantasy I get bored of him and break up with them. I can only people till the time I don't know them otherwise I am done.

5. I am very selfish
I am not selfish like everyone. I cannot put anyone before me, like anyone's any need. I think that no one ever puts me first(which I don't think is true) then why should I do likewise.

After reading this I am pretty sure no one thinks I am capable of loving any one and I am pretty sure no one will ever love me after knowing all this. Good thing then that I have no  readers.

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