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Am I actually smart?

Well, since this is a anonymous blog I am going to let go of my fake modesty and say that I have always considered that I am somewhere in the top 1%  in terms of intelligence.

How did I measure it?
Well, I know it is not considered a very appropriate measure but I always scored pretty high and was among the top three of my class, also whenever I took an IQ test I have always had an IQ in the range of 125-135. Plus I am quick at learning and understanding stuff. So I have always taken for granted that I am pretty smart.

But the problem these days is that I am losing faith in my intelligence, I am feeling something I have never felt in my entire life, I feel dumb. Also one of the most important measures of intelligence for me, i.e. my marks are falling, apart from that even when I am going for quizzes these days I hardly know 25% of the questions as opposed to somewhere between 70%-80% generally. I am so scared, because generally being smart is my thing, I am not good at anything else, what am I supposed to do. This just adds to my general purposelessness my life, because usually I am the smart one, but these days I just feel so lost. I don't know who am I and I don't know why am here.

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