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Lost

It has been a month since I have been back in Pune and I don't know how that month has passed.

It has all been internship, moot, assignments and more assignments. I have not slept for more than 4 hours in the past three weeks and today I feel enough is enough.

I frankly can't take it anymore, I need sleep, I need leisure time, I need a break, and it has just been a month, I have like 3 more left and now I feel like I can't do this any more.

I have legitimately had like actual moments where I have  wanted to leave all this and go and join like a writing school, I was even checked a couple of colleges.

But I always stop short, I don't know why?
May be I am too afraid or too complacent or I just think too much about it.

Plus on top of it I feel so incomplete these days, I feel as if I am  doing everything in such a mechanic manner, I feel as if my life has no purpose. I have no clue what would I do after this course gets over. I have never felt so lost, so completely and utterly loss.

 

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