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The Meltdown

I just had a emotional meltdown, though I am sure whether I could actually be termed as a emotional since it had absolutely nothing to do with well emotions, so why did I have it, I think analyzing it logically would help me overcome it. So, I think it was because I am overthink a lot of things and am taking things very seriously. I guess the main reason is I have this submission on 14th, which I have not even started now, normally it should not matter, but this is a subject I am not good at and have already messed my first internal, so I can't afford to mess up another one, also last semester was my first semester and hence I was bit easy on myself and took things pretty lightly, on the top of it I was not able to give a 100% in my exams, but this sem I really need to pull up my socks and start working, I can't afford to have another bad semester on my CV, just can't. But I feel that, that ship has already sailed, as I have already messed up first set of internals, so now I have to score really well in my second set of internals and hence I am worried, plus I have a bunch of other activities lined up and I just don't know what to do?  Now I know this might sound like I have bitten off a bit or rather a lot more than I can chew but this is not that, I like being busy. But this time I feel really disconnected, really off I just want a break from all this, but I can't. Plus I feel I have really less time left as my exam date sheet is out and I only have a month and a half left for my exams. The only solution to all the problems is just stop thinking and start doing.

PS- Some how I'm really scared, I have this weird feeling in my stomach and feel like every thing is wrong and something bad and terrible is going to happen, plus I am feeling very dreadful and awful.

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