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Am I being true to myself?

Lately I feel I am taking myself for granted, my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts, I am suppressing them or rather hiding them so that others don't feel bad or get hurt, but what about me? What about my feeling? Does anybody care if I get hurt?

No. I feel people are taking me for granted and I feel I know why because I am taking myself for granted, being the emotional anchor for others has drained me so much that I need a emotional anchor for myself, but people don't get that. I have become so entangled in others problems that I feel I think more about them than myself, I spend more time pulling them out of trouble than with myself.

I have to start devoting time for myself, for my projects, for my entertainment. If people want to fight let them fight, if they want to do skip internals let them do it. I have to learn to let go and stand for myself, if people are doing something which makes me feel uncomfortable I have to learn to refuse. How can I be true to myself when I am being a pushover, a doormat.... someone not me.

 

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