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The worst feeling in the world

What could be the worst feeling in this world? Is it the feeling of being rejected, is it feeling incompetent or the feeling that whatever you do you could never match up to the people around you.
Or is it feeling all this at the same time. I'm having the worse time one could have, I have just got the rejection letter from another cell for which I had applied for, this is the second cell in which from which I have been rejected, and it is natural to feel bad this, is this not. I mean I had a feeling that the interview for this cell was really bad the moment I was giving it, secondly people in my batch are submitting research papers, winning debates and in general distinguishing themselves whereas I'm proving myself to be the incompetent blob that I am.
I really don't know what to do, where to start, feel so utterly completely lost and more importantly so lonely .

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