The Turning Point

Dear S*****p, I really don't know where to start, I am not sure whether I should apologize or be disappointed because you are not what I imagined you to be. But I can't blame you, because it is not your fault, I have made you, I have built you up in my mind, and unfortunately you are not that person and it is not your fault. You didn't know that I expected chivalry  and hence you gave me indifference. I made you out to be kind which you are not, and funny and smart. I made a fictional character with the same identity as a real human being and it is not your fault. But since I do not like taking responsibility for my actions you have to bear the brunt of my imagination and hence if things become awkward and I become distant you can blame me. Regards Your Imaginary Girlfriend

You can disappoint a lot of people, People you know People you don't But  the worst thing is to disappoint yourself. Wasting your potential Letting opportunities pass away Settling for mediocrity Its like cheating yourself Convincing yourself that you get what you deserve Making excuses Being easy on yourself Wasting yourself away. Until, one day realization dawns That you deserve better But you have no one to blame Because deep down you know it is you

Everyone has someone. This someone can be anyone a friend, a parent, a sibling, a romantic partner. You know this someone would always be there for you, would never betray you, would never judge you and most importantly never leave you. This someone is the person around whom you can be you, around whom who take out all masks and just be yourselves. He/She would never label you, would never try to complete you but complement you. She thought about this someone often, whether she would ever find such a person? But, then she would tell herself that this is what she has worked towards her entire life. To be self- dependent because people always leave and if they don't leave they expect you to change for them. They want to fix you. But what if I am not broken, she thought. Maybe this was her a little neurotic, a little asocial, a little aloof and maybe she was fine that way. Just because she was different did not mean that she was faulty. Just because she did not enjoy the things o...

Is it possible to reach that point in your life where you have kept feelings in a jar for so long that they have died along with everything related to it.

So I don't know how many,  if any,  regular readers I have; but nonetheless I will continue to make references to my previous posts. So in my first year, I had a major crush on this guy in my class, I never told anybody about it, obviously.  Eventually, he started dating one of my closest friends. I  resented her for that for the longest time and quite frankly still do.  This is in spite  the fact  I don't like him anymore, they have broken up for over a year now and he is with someone else. Now fast forward to my present crush, again  I have numerous posts about him, and I think history is repeating itself; in other words, I think he has a crush or if crush is way too strong a word here I think he likes my best friend. Again, I am playing fast and loose with the word best friend here, although she is my roommate and I hang out with her a lot but I really find her fake and she gets on my nerves .  So I am really not a huge fan o...

Dear A*****a, Chill really, remember why you went through such a bad phrase last year. Remember why you almost went into clinical depression. Remember what almost wrecked you last year. It was not the moot, it was the importance you attached to this not so significant event. It was the way you got worked up for nothing. I know this means a lot to you, I know you have to prove a lot to a lot of people, but you have to remain level- headed. Because, when you are calm you can conquer the world. Work hard, work your ass off. Give it  your 200% , but don't let it get to your head. Remember whatever happens it is not the end of the world. You can come back from a 11 rank, you will get what you deserve. Just be the best version of yourself.  Don't do this for the wrong reasons, do this for the right reasons, do this because you want to and not because you have to. I know your destination is to get a great rank, but don't forget to enjoy and learn from the journey.  Keep ...

I know this is the last thing you want to hear today, but count your blessings and be happy. In know, this week is really hard you  are sick and you feel weak and your uterus is also hell-bent on making your life harder but remember like everything even this shall pass. I know, you feel like you have bitten more than you have chewed, I know you are scared about this semester; you donot want your CGPA to drop further, you want to do moots and win them . But, you feel you can't . Stop doing this to yourself. Give yourself a break, don't be so hard on yourself. Enjoy life, read books, daydream about S*****p. Chill, be happy and focus on the now and do your best and leave the rest( not to anybody).