Skip to main content

Nothing kills you like your mind

Okay so this another life changing moment for me, I just realize that more than half of the time I'm don't do things because of fear of failing, I have a very vivid imagination I can imagine the worse case scenario in very situation even when something good may have a chance of happening I just mess it up by thinking and overthinking it.

Like right now I have this MUN coming up and trust me I have wanted to MUN for a very long time but now I'm really scared and because of that I'm making all these worst case scenarios in my mind about how I would suck.

The problem with me is that I care, not too much, but still I do care enough to hesitate, and this is where I lose out on opportunities, but now I have decided I'm going to give up on this hesitation and not let my mind kill me slowly. I'm going to do what I like, how I like and when I like. I'm going to ask questions in class, participate in discussions and debates, volunteer alone if I have to, but I won't give a rat's ass about anyone anymore.

 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Restoring back faith in humanity one person at a time.

So what I was dreading finally happened, my friend and my crush finally got together. But as it turns out it is not that bad, I don't feel resentful or sad in fact I'm quite happy.  I have realized I didn't like him at all. I was just fascinated with him and that fascination got over as soon as I talked with him for some time. He is just as boring as everyone else. And on the top of that I'm really happy for her, I never knew I was such a good friend. See she had lived in Delhi for a very long time so as to cope up with the beasts there (yes that what they deserved to be called) she got into this shell, became something she was not. But with him she feels she is returning back to her old self. And she just seems so happy, I can't just simply resent her happiness and frankly I'm not that damaged(I still have faith in humanity), in fact I'm not damaged at all. My thick skin has protected me pretty well from the activities of these beasts. I feel people are c
Post a Comment
Read more

Not a Teenager anymore

Well, I think it is about time I revamp my blog. There are a cuple of reasons for this- to begin with I am not a teenager anymore I just turned 20 so the blog desperately needs a name change. Plus I started this blog when I was really young with really no clear motive in mind . Over the past two years it has become more like my online journal, but a very ill documented one at that. I become activee on it when I feel like and leave it at the drop of the hat. My lack of commitment to this blog is something which I am really ashamed off, I know I have no readership so I slack off more and thus begins the vicious cycle. I did not start this blog for the readership but then again I don't really remember why did I ever start it in the first place. I remember I always thought ( and still do) that I was a good writer  and ws capable of producing something that the world would be inerested in reading. But, now I do realize that though I am a good  writer but there are better writers out
Post a Comment
Read more

Need for validation

I have known it for quite some time that I have a very desperate need for validation and I can't tolerate criticism, there have been times when I have stopped talking to people or have manipulated public opinion to his determinant against a person who has dared to criticize me. I know I have a fault, I know that I am not really that good of an orator but I know one thing for sure that I have this friend to whom I have referred before as. " That annoying friend" and dude I know she is dumber than I am. I know it in my heart and my brain. She is just this extremely emotional creature who as acts like a child, is extremely uncompromising and a grave attention seeker. She is really slow can't understand criticism. But that is not what I am writing to you about, what really annoys me is that the fact that she does not work hard at all, she does not even complete her syllabus, does nothing, I know for a fact that she can't write or think crap and still ends up gettin
Post a Comment
Read more